Struggling with God

“Hard To Get”
by Rich Mullins:

You who live in heaven,
Hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth:
Who are afraid of being left by those we love,
And who get hardened by the hurt.
Do you remember when You lived down here where we all scrape
To find the faith to ask for daily bread?
Did You forget about us after You had flown away?
Well I memorized every word You said.
Still I’m so scared I’m holding my breath
While You’re up there just playing hard to get.

You who live in radiance,
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in skin:
We have a love that’s not as patient as Yours was,
Still we do love now and then.
Did You ever know loneliness?
Did You ever know need?
Do You remember just how long a night can get,
When You are barely holding on and Your friends fall asleep,
And don’t see the blood that’s running in Your sweat?
Will those who mourn be left uncomforted,
While You’re up there just playing hard to get?

And I know you bore our sorrows.
And I know you feel our pain.
And I know it would not hurt any less
Even if it could be explained.
And I know that I am only lashing out
At the One who loves me most.
And after I figured this somehow
All I really need to know…

Is if You who live in eternity,
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in time:
We can’t see what’s ahead
And we cannot get free of what we’ve left behind.
I’m reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears,
All the words of shame and doubt, blame and regret.
I can’t see how You’re leading me unless You’ve led me here,
Where I’m lost enough to let myself be led.
And so You’ve been here all along I guess
It’s just Your ways and You are just plain hard to get.

“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion for him, and ran and embraced him and kissed him.” (- Luke 15:20 NASB)

Below is a fan upload of the song with a band photo displaying. Try scrolling up to reflect on the words as the music plays.

This song is from the album “The Jesus Record”
which was completed by Mullins’ band after his death in 1997.
“The Jesus Record” by Rich Mullins


Struggling with God
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